A couple months ago, I stopped actively blogging. I was still baking and cooking and eating and taking pictures and writing about it, but I detached myself from the blogging community. I stopped checking my comments and browsing through other blogs. At first, I told myself that it was only for a couple weeks or a month or so while I worked on my summatives. (Because as a high school junior who goes to a full-year school, this means I have eight different worth-oh-only-thirty-percent-of-your-grade-no-big-deal assignments going on at the same time.) But then summatives turned into exams and then literally the day after I wrote my last exam—biology—I left for a three-week summer program in the US.
|one of the rooms in one of the libraries on campus.|
I studied psychology at the university. Whenever I was not:
- sitting in class (either sweating profusely or chilled to the bone because our professor couldn’t decide on which room—the one with no AC or the one with—had better AV);
- watching fireworks on a random Monday night (or rather, trying to catch glimpses of fireworks through silhouetted tree forms—who puts on a firework show BEHIND trees...?)
- writing an awesome paper about resisting social influence (while allowing myself to be peer pressured into going to the highlighter dance instead of finishing up writing my paper)
- climbing a tree in the arts quad (which is kind of a big deal because I have an irrational fear of heights)
- learning how to (kind of) do the polonaise
- eating waffles drenched in maple syrup and melted butter at literally every meal (because the waffles are the best-tasting thing at the cafeteria );
- cleaning out my new semi infected ear piercings (for which I had to purchase a $75 tube of ointment—a tube I could have received for free back home in Canada)
amongst other things, I studied. I updated my blog with new posts every now and then, but otherwise, I left it alone. I just felt as if I didn’t have the time.
|my friend's dorm room.|
But time is a tricky thing. It’s not about having time. It’s about being able to prioritize and do the important things first. For the past three months, school and grades were the center of my life. But now that I’m finally done with structured commitments, I’m not really sure what to do first. I’ve literally been living with a daily to-do list, a list that carries over the previous day’s unchecked items, since I came back from the US. I just can’t seem to organize my thoughts otherwise. I still need to study for my pivotal upcoming senior year, but now that I don’t have school to anchor my day to, I’m trying to rebalance my life.
The first thing that entailed rebalancing my life: actively blogging again. Honestly, blogging just wasn’t as fun when I was doing it by myself.